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out of no where
Saturday, February 8, 2014 @ Saturday, February 08, 2014 |
comment (0) currently blogging due to sick and tired of life ? hmm , nope .. too bored ! and i can't seem to find anything to do . suppose to went bai nian with my clique today, but it just happen to fall on the 9th of lunar month, so i need to come to my dad office to bai bai . so i give bai nian a miss . oh well , i'm aiming to go next year , if possible !
anyway came to office, rushed my techno report in the morning so that i could enjoy my afternoon with no worries. so i did , and i found out i don't really have anything to do, so i pretty bored here in the office. started to play some online games , but still .... i'm bored . i believe some fungus is growing on my head. really really bored.
and for the past few days, i couldn't get a good night sleep . due to ? i have no idea , trying my best to sleep, but couldn't help and took at least an hr to fall asleep ? feeling super tired, but just seem to can't fall asleep . worse thing is ... i start to think about my future.. and i got so worried , so scared and so emotional. let me explain my emotional part .. well, i'm someone that is super emotional.. even when i'm watching drama or movie, i can start crying. sorry, i'm a crybaby TT okay , that's not the main point. the main point is i start to think what if my parents left me one day, how am i suppose to cope that sadness ? i mean i'm not asking my parents to babysit me even when i get older. i can't imagine my parents left, even when i married, had child , grandchild , i still can't get over the feeling being separated by death. am i scared of death ? yes , but someone death . not mine . i think my heart might really literally break into pieces if anyone that is close to me left.
okay, i shouldn't be emo-ing here . but this is not, just a fact i can't get pass myself. like i'm really tried to tell myself, by then i'll be fine i can let it go .. it isn't working .
other than over thinking, i think my life still went pretty well ? having a sum of awesome classmates working with me on projects .. maybe some hiccups here and there, but nevertheless they are awesome ! fun people to work with and play with. as for my work, life's good ! but not perfect , i still miss my colleagues. as for my intern, it pretty much over. meet up with my intern colleagues, had awesome catch up with them and miss the time having lunch with them pretty much. although, i might have some issue with some colleagues, but still it's an wonderful experience having interns there. life at home is pretty good as well , going hong kong again on march. can't wait for my gateway. start to love traveling around . hehe!
what upset me the most is due to my busy schedule, i have been missing outing with my friends. and i'm missing out so much. oh well ! at least my school is gonna end, should have more time by then ?
a new year a new start ! Gong xi fa cai ! finally finished my bullshiting here, okay bye humans!
comfort zone
Wednesday, September 25, 2013 @ Wednesday, September 25, 2013 |
comment (0) been a month since i last post .. was busy with work and came back frm my holiday not long ago . revisit taiwan after 5 years ? but this time was free and easy .. went for 9 days , it was quite short for me , was hoping it will be longer. however, the sch holidays was juz 1 week. anyway , this trip was fun and relaxing , and most importantly i'm totally stress-free . why ? well , my internship is over. so glad i'm finally done with it , no more faking, no more upsetting , no more faker , etc etc .. i'm juz glad it's over ! even my parents are so happy for me . although it wasn't a very good or neither bad experience for me, since i had learnt lots of things from some of the colleagues there. there're good and bad , so i think i might juz need to accept this is how the work society works. kinda miss the finance dept. , they are my happy pills. they might be older , but they are much wiser as well . since it's holiday, have been working at Charlies and Keith . so fun working with all those colleagues like xiao yen etc, my dear Valerie join back our nex team . it's even more enjoyable working with her , we got lots of lots of jokes when we come tgt . i just love the time working there , although it might be quite tiring to stand 8 hrs , but it's all worth it . one sad thing was that hui hui got transfer to airport , i miss her trying to annoy me , try to 'steal' my sales and always complaining tht top management keep fine her for not wearing makeup. saw those tweet and photo , i juz felt disgusted by those few ppl . totally don't get it why are you all so shameless . like seriously , how can you act till like tht when you are alrdy adults . working adults .. plus your english really CMI , worse than me , that's quite saddening . some of the photos i took during the taiwan trip (; my grandparents and my parents are so lovely . kekeke !!             
        
   
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Saturday, August 24, 2013 @ Saturday, August 24, 2013 |
comment (0) it's sat ! and it juz pass so fast ! another day pass so fast ! and it's gonna be monday soon, i hateeeee monday . can i not go for internship ?? drain !! waking up at unearthly timing . i just wan my bed more than anything ! haha , at least i'm able to sleep in after nxt week ! woohooooooo ~
tdy came dad office bai bai , like past few years . it's the same procedures and food , but the food taste much better as compare to last time . feel so fat .. hahahaha , spent my whole day at the office with my family . feel so blessed to have them .. maybe at times we do quarrel , and have different point of view or opinion on certain issues, nevertheless they were beside me whn i need them the most . they care that why they are always nagging . haha , it's annoying .. nevertheless it's the way how they show me their loveeee , rightt ? and daddy was saying stomach don't feel well , it's better not the eat sashimi .. but den i ate alrdy .. oops ..
had a great evening with waiteng ytd .. meet up for dinner and some shopping . had our dinner at sushi tei , we were so full ! the food are so nicee and pretty . took bus the amk and train-ed home . we talked abt our sec sch life during the long bus ride .. think back, the memories are so precious and funny . it seem like we just know each other for a few days , but then it's gonna be 6 years ! bu zhi bu jue jiu 6 nian le .. i miss the times when we go playground to play blindmice , catching and play poker cards. we don't get tired so easily, but nowadays walking a few meters longer, we complaint tired alrdy. upgraded to aunties ! hahaha !! we fought so much too when we were in sec sch , but den awhile we are bck to normal . bu da bu xiang shi ! can't wait for 31 aug to come , since we have our singing k + movie dates on tht day .. craving for k ! haha , 6 hours straight ! lets goooooo ! after my taiwan trip will be adventure cove/WWW date ! can't wait for internship to end, my holiday is pack with full of activities !! short gateway , meeting up with friends and working at c&k(with a much higher pay than internship) and moreeeee .... no more 5.30pm end work !! weeeeeeee ~ another 4 days ! :)
nowadays my blog title is all songs name, checked which songs is on my playlist .. coz can't think of any meaningful or look meaningful quote .
突然累了- JJ
         frozen kiss
Monday, August 19, 2013 @ Monday, August 19, 2013 |
comment (0) so another day juz pass by . less than 24 hrs I'm having my pr2 , so worried and nervous ! although it's not graded but it's still major ! JY JY lets do it ! hope to get it done n over with ! be more responsible .. don't try to be a burden can you ? we got so many things in hand , don't have the time to wait for each other , things wund get it done on time . having limited patient to wait .. get annoyed very easily whn I waited too long .. blahhhhhh , siannnnn .. should juz stop thinking abt it .. everything's over .. lets end with a kiss .. eternal kiss . frozen kiss is a song btw ~ re-editing
Saturday, August 17, 2013 @ Saturday, August 17, 2013 |
comment (0) posted my last post on the way to sch .. after reading it seem like got quite a lot of English error , no wonder got d7 la D: hahaha , paragraphing also badddd. btw it's talking about 2 incident , with the big mouth incident juz happened ytd ? still get on my nerve thinking abt it .. only got to knw her less than a month yet so many things happen . anyway sch meeting with lek went fine , much better than expected . luckily ._.'' thought lek remark will be there's alot of improvement to be made etc .. but hai hao it went pretty well ~ muz prepare prepare for PR2 alrdy ! >< had a small lunch ? or lunch in sch at the new canteen. food was affordable and nice ! sometime i felt they are just overprotective .. think back .. wasn't angry but they tend to think of the worse situation will happen . partly glad they care so much, another part feel annoyed at times since the wearing isn't tht bad ? in the mid confusion ahh .. over 12 alrdy .. new post ~ everything has changed
Friday, August 16, 2013 @ Friday, August 16, 2013 |
comment (0) it's finally mid aug ! another 2 weeks I'll be out of hell ! ok .. maybe wasn't as bad as being in hell . there are still certain ppl make the stay a little more tolerance .. so we left 2 weeks before internship come to an end .. fruitful and rewarding experience , learnt so much regardless on work or personal stuff . now should start wrap up our projects , PR2 is on nxt tue ! that's quite fast ! lets hope we can ace it ! never felt so angry for so long .. didn't expect things will turn out this way . it's surprising how dramatic our friendship turn out . I wondered where's the trust u said ? don't play with fire , den who's playing with ? don't get it at all .. it's so funny I trusted u so much , tht y I told u so much . but wht I get in the end ? all those bullshit u warned me ? ridiculous ridiculous ! don't u see that what u said and what u did is exactly the opposite ?! and I don't get it if it's someone personal life why u such a big mouth went to tell others ? it's none of ur business and u don't even knw that person why go around tell tales of what u heard ? since u r a third party , can't u stop ur big mouth frm spreading any rumors ? feel free to fit in if u think u r the one I'm talking abt . and I think no point trying to explain when there aren't any trust . in the first place I wasn't even given a chance to explain . pardon for my language . had a short meet up with my darlings last weeks ! it's been sometime the 4 of us meet alrdy ! well spent night with them ! catching up + dinner + shopping ! time seen to past super fast when we got tgt .. forever not enough time catching up ! can't imagine my life without them ! and btw see yao got see my blog ma .. haha , I read ur blog le la ! just let the feeling fade as time pass .. everything has changed . life's full of up and down
Thursday, August 8, 2013 @ Thursday, August 08, 2013 |
comment (0) things doesn't always go according to what we plan .. so many unpredictable incident . for example, was pretty fine tdy , nt sure wht happen .. become enemy alrdy ? didn't even had a chance to explain , den sentence to death alrdy . isn't quite unfair ? I didn't even knw what's wrong . avoiding doesn't solve any issues right ? at least at my point of view .. it's better to talk face to face at least we knw whether if it's a misunderstanding . wasn't in the best mood of my life for these few days , have been thinking alot .. upset and disappointment are the only 2 words that cn described how I felt for the past few days .. didn't expect things to turn out this way .. where's the promise u once said ? gone ? if you can't keep ur promise , why in the first place u wan to make the promised ? lets focus of what I have nw , rather than what I have lost .. there might be ppl that are in a much worse situation as compare to me .. hence I shld focus what I have nw . 知足常乐！have a bunch of crazyy BFF supporting me , so I'm gonna get through it ! thankful tht they appear in my life , without them I might not able to get to where am I nw . I'm sure I'm gonna cherish them !! too in love with them alrdy ! plus my family as well .. although they don't show , but I still feel their overflowing love . hahaha , it's true . they are always there for me , and I'm so gladddddd (: met pei pei for a short meet up ytd ! miss working with her ! plus I finally meet my darlings tdy for dinner .. omq , totally went crazy with them ! time always pass so fast when we r tgt ! nvr enough for us ! looking forward to the nxt meeting with them !! if he choose to believe them , so be it .. wasn't fated to be friend I guess ? if he doesn't trust me , den we aren't friend . what's friendship without trust ? 我的幸福在那里？
Monday, July 22, 2013 @ Monday, July 22, 2013 |
comment (0) gosh .. totally annoyed by blogger . was blogging halfway , crash .. all my stuff gone . damn .. need to type again . juz spoilt my mood .. adding on to my Monday blues ! still have 4 weeks and 4 days before intern end ! finally my suffering gonna end !! soon enough to make me happy . internship isn't tht bad , but isn't smt I enjoy or wan to do . prefer my books and exam I guess ? my grade show everything . did fair better in other module without project . hoping friday will come quickly , everyone loves weekend right ! it also a day I cn spent time with my family and work at c&k too . ytd went shopping with my family . and what we shop ? all food .. hahaha , we r one big pig family !! oink oink ! love eating !! but den also went to search for keyboard for my bro , he started to learn piano . very keen in learning instrument as well , bt my age shld be too old for it alrdy I guess ? I guess bad habit hard to die .. I did it again .. damn .. huien ahh huien !! quit for a few months alrdy .. why I strt again ! am I too lonely !? hmm .. *thinking thinking* errm .. I don't think so .. well , at least it's smt tht nobody knows .. if anyone know , I might as well kill myself for it . total embraressment . lol .. when I'm free , I tend to think alot . my mind juz can't stop thinking .. 爱你 想幸福的人 nice songs , part of my feeling . every moment is so precious .
Sunday, July 21, 2013 @ Sunday, July 21, 2013 |
comment (0) didn't work for 3 weeks , when I'm back . Leo got transfer out .. to wisma . missing him so much TT nw nobody will help me get the bags tht are higher shelve . nobody gonna 斗嘴 with me , making fun whn I'm serving the customers . gonna miss him so much ... haiz ! so I guess nobody gonna transfer for nw .. Michelle n Leo did , so .. in return of Leo transferring out , Tan got transfer to nex .. still not close with him , not sure what kind of colleague he is .. but overall I guess he's very kind , helping us pack shoes :3 and also pei left gc , which is a gd thing , nw she's going for another job . (: let's wish her luck . haha so broke for this month .. no extra cash for me to spent .. cn prepare to eat grass alrdy . totally got annoyed by my mom .. maybe tht few bucks doesn't matter to you . but u have to rmb , nw I don't get any allowance frm dad , how many I gonna survive with so little cash . I knw u r concern with my acne problem , but den pls be more reasonable .. dk why at time I just think abt the things regarding .. especially when I'm bored .. totally wtf , coz ya lor . what to expect ! annoyed annoyed .. if only I cn rewind the time , I wan to strt everything afresh . I wan to have a different ending . an ending I want . surprisingly .
Wednesday, July 17, 2013 @ Wednesday, July 17, 2013 |
comment (0) didn't expect he would do such thing .. found out by accident , it's so shocking and funny at the same time . I thought only those ppl tht r older will go for it , but den .. below 30 ehh , quite young for this ahh .. oops ! part of me can't accept the fact he did it , but after some thought its his pl .. well , I wish him luck I guess ? and also been missing him much as well , didn't contact for days alrdy .. felt better after talking to someone abt it . although it didn't solve any problem , bt always felt better after talking to someone . if only I'm still have time with my BFF , could have juz told them everything . they are so busy with sch etc .. hope bin cn pull through , and stay happy . life always have up n down right ? I'm sure you will feel better in no time . loveya . paranoid
Tuesday, July 16, 2013 @ Tuesday, July 16, 2013 |
comment (0) i hope i'm thinking too much.. i just can't stop thinking if people is hating me or angry at me, i'm not sure i'm too sensitive or what. the fact is i really don't have high self-esteem, so i'm always thinking people judge me by my looks etc. people really do, just that we wouldn't know. not trying to be emo to be attention seeker, but the fact is does anyone know how i really feel ? i treasure every single relationship (not the bgr) , i take it to heart what ever had bee said. not xiao qi, but den i care too much i guess. i'm a person that i need u to tell me u love me everyday, because i'm insecure .. i don't think i'm important to anyone.. always laughing doesn't mean i'm happy . it's really just a mask i need to wear, because nobody knows how it really feel like to be me , huien. if someone asked are you ok ? it's always fine, why? because i'm not sure how to answer if there's anything wrong. i'm sorry being me. feeling didn't fade
Wednesday, July 3, 2013 @ Wednesday, July 03, 2013 |
comment (0) not sure what I wan .. the feeling just doesn't fade like I expected it shld be .. but then it's impossible for him to like me , I'm juz a xmm like what he say . I'm neither pretty or smart .. nothing make me special , other than my pimple face . haiz , why oh why ? :( got such a bad skin .. don't feel like updating much , shall update soon . bye ~ wanting you so much .
Friday, June 28, 2013 @ Friday, June 28, 2013 |
comment (0) really missing you so much . wanting you so much as well . but I'm sure it's impossible . oh well .. mixed feeling
Saturday, June 22, 2013 @ Saturday, June 22, 2013 |
comment (0)  made quite a lot of new friends and colleagues in my current intern company, there are 'good' and 'bad' people u will meet. i wonder what will be like in the 1st company i'm gonna to join. hope it's a better one. hehe. got the knw 2 crazy pretty ladies , always nvr fail to make me laugh everyday. that will be rachel and zoe , and there's more. at least they made my stay there more enjoyable, gonna miss them real bad when i leave. talking about leaving, michelle(Charles and Keith) left. got transfer to AP, nxt will be leo. not sure where he's gonna be transfer to, bt definitely gonna miss him so badly. he teaches me a lot of things and also make my days working at charles and keith more fun than usual. he's one of the best colleagues in charles and keith. and my contract is ending soon, not sure shld i continue working since the uniform look damn ugly and big for me. plus so many ppl is transferring out, need to adapt to new staff at nex. supposedly i have so many activities for tmr, however due to the haze so many thing cancel. and some things crop up as well. so i think tmr might be a stay home sat. can save money for fri k, hehe. have been a very good girl this week, came bck home for dinner everyday, keke, another way to save money as well ~ plus there's not a need to think what to eat. zoe brought a ukelele for her bro, and it's juz 28 dollars. tempting to buy, but i have no idea how to play, so might be a waste of money. i'm so confused about how i feel towards you.. is it like or i juz like ur present there ? at times i'll miss about u, but the more i think about u and me, my conclusion is no way. there isn't a way out for us. and also i'm curious about how u feel toward me, but i'm worried that i got the answer i don't wan to hear. i also don't wan to lose a friend like you. i miss you.. new start
Wednesday, May 1, 2013 @ Wednesday, May 01, 2013 |
comment (0) haven't been blogging for a few months already . first post for 2013 . nth much to update , juz that i'm pretty busy with work and school , but i have fun with it . hehe , shall update more on the nxt post . things will get better . fragile
Monday, August 27, 2012 @ Monday, August 27, 2012 |
comment (0) almost pass 2 months since i posted . shall post a short one before i continue to study for my paper. another 2 days i will be officially free frm exam . didn't expect this sem to pass so fast , in a blink of eye , i'm having my 2.1 exam . just hope i cn achieve a better result as compare to last sem . recently, many things happen . i heard a lot of deaths arnd me , it's sad to knw tht . my friends' mom pass away frm cancer . i guess you can say her mom is a warrior, she fought well and she nvr once give up . RIP auntie . and also heard someone frm TP also pass away few days ago . i may not knw you, but i heard u r a great guy , rest in peace Issac. these make me realize tht life is so fragile. don't take things for granted because you nvr knw wht is gonna happen nxt moment. Dear Sherralyn, i'm not sure if u r gonna see this post or not. i have been to ur mom wake, u look/sound okay, but i knw deep inside u aren't . i knw it's not gonna be easy to let go. time heals the wound. u said u r prepared for the worse, but nobody will ever be prepare to lost the one they love , especially is someone tht is so special to u . ur mom . i'm so glad to see u trying so hard to be strong, in fact not only glad but also with proud. if i'm in ur shoes, i cn nvr be like you , trying so hard to be normal. if ever someone tht is close to me pass on , part of me die with them . so baby stay strong k ? i'm always here for u , i'm not good at words , i'm good in listening. u aren't gonna fight this war alone , but with me . (: fulfilling days
Sunday, July 1, 2012 @ Sunday, July 01, 2012 |
comment (0) it's been long since i posted agn , ever since after the sch break i'm so busy with assignment and camps . well, i only cn blame myself for doing it during the 2 week break , procrastinating . for the two weeks break i either go to sch for meeting and meet yao,bin n teng (: been so long since i met them , totally miss them like hell , so glad to meet them . 29-30th june was the bizen camp, and i'm so happy tht it was a success ! seem like all the freshies tht came was enjoying (: glad tht the effort the main com put in was paid off (: however, since it was our first camp as the organizer and heads of the dept, there is a lot part tht we need to improve on . i'm glad tht i'm working with cally, she really done a great job coz partly she is programmer for FO . thanks for guiding ! not only tht, bizen freshie camp is the first camp tht i didn't sleep at all . hehe , proud of myself (: well, there is more to come , hope i cn do better ! simple life looks great .
Saturday, May 19, 2012 @ Saturday, May 19, 2012 |
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finally BIZEN AGM and 10th anniversary is over , glad to say it's a successful one . not only tht , i no longer need dance . hehe , we had 260 audience on tht day . since AGM is over , we need to plan for our freshie camp n prepare for our term test . i need to think of games ! oh god , i'm not tht creative .. i need help !!
all these while i keep changing , trying to to fit in the cliques , hoping i could climb higher . but i realize what i want is not this , what i really want is hope that there's ppl cn accept me for who i am . tht will be enough , so being simple looks great. i need a break
Saturday, March 31, 2012 @ Saturday, March 31, 2012 |
comment (0)  i'm tired of everything , it's time to have a break . |
