mixed feeling

it's mid june alrdy ! time pass so fast ! half way through my MP/SIP .. isn't a very enjoyable being there for internship, many things happened. well, i couldn't say it's totally not my fault for some of the incidents. but mostly wasn't due to me. it's quite stressful to be out of society working, seen and experience partly of it. wasn't as fun and easy as we thought. and sadly i'm losing the determination and motivation for my mp, i just hope i can buck up and work harder to archive what i wan.

made quite a lot of new friends and colleagues in my current intern company, there are 'good' and 'bad' people u will meet. i wonder what will be like in the 1st company i'm gonna to join. hope it's a better one. hehe. got the knw 2 crazy pretty ladies , always nvr fail to make me laugh everyday. that will be rachel and zoe , and there's more. at least they made my stay there more enjoyable, gonna miss them real bad when i leave.

talking about leaving, michelle(Charles and Keith) left. got transfer to AP, nxt will be leo. not sure where he's gonna be transfer to, bt definitely gonna miss him so badly. he teaches me a lot of things and also make my days working at charles and keith more fun than usual. he's one of the best colleagues in charles and keith. and my contract is ending soon, not sure shld i continue working since the uniform look damn ugly and big for me. plus so many ppl is transferring out, need to adapt to new staff at nex.

supposedly i have so many activities for tmr, however due to the haze so many thing cancel. and some things crop up as well. so i think tmr might be a stay home sat. can save money for fri k, hehe. have been a very good girl this week, came bck home for dinner everyday, keke, another way to save money as well ~ plus there's not a need to think what to eat. zoe brought a ukelele for her bro, and it's juz 28 dollars. tempting to buy, but i have no idea how to play, so might be a waste of money.


i'm so confused about how i feel towards you.. is it like or i juz like ur present there ? at times i'll miss about u, but the more i think about u and me, my conclusion is no way. there isn't a way out for us. and also i'm curious about how u feel toward me, but i'm worried that i got the answer i don't wan to hear. i also don't wan to lose a friend like you. i miss you..