我的幸福在那里？

gosh .. totally annoyed by blogger . was blogging halfway , crash .. all my stuff gone . damn .. need to type again .

juz spoilt my mood .. adding on to my Monday blues ! still have 4 weeks and 4 days before intern end ! finally my suffering gonna end !! soon enough to make me happy . internship isn't tht bad , but isn't smt I enjoy or wan to do . prefer my books and exam I guess ? my grade show everything . did fair better in other module without project . hoping friday will come quickly , everyone loves weekend right ! it also a day I cn spent time with my family and work at c&k too .

ytd went shopping with my family . and what we shop ? all food .. hahaha , we r one big pig family !! oink oink ! love eating !! but den also went to search for keyboard for my bro , he started to learn piano . very keen in learning instrument as well , bt my age shld be too old for it alrdy I guess ?

I guess bad habit hard to die .. I did it again .. damn .. huien ahh huien !! quit for a few months alrdy .. why I strt again ! am I too lonely !? hmm .. *thinking thinking* errm .. I don't think so .. well , at least it's smt tht nobody knows .. if anyone know , I might as well kill myself for it . total embraressment . lol .. when I'm free , I tend to think alot . my mind juz can't stop thinking ..


爱你
想幸福的人
nice songs , part of my feeling .

every moment is so precious .

didn't work for 3 weeks , when I'm back . Leo got transfer out .. to wisma . missing him so much TT nw nobody will help me get the bags tht are higher shelve . nobody gonna 斗嘴 with me , making fun whn I'm serving the customers . gonna miss him so much ... haiz ! so I guess nobody gonna transfer for nw .. Michelle n Leo did , so ..

in return of Leo transferring out , Tan got transfer to nex .. still not close with him , not sure what kind of colleague he is .. but overall I guess he's very kind , helping us pack shoes :3 and also pei left gc , which is a gd thing , nw she's going for another job . (: let's wish her luck . haha

so broke for this month .. no extra cash for me to spent .. cn prepare to eat grass alrdy . totally got annoyed by my mom .. maybe tht few bucks doesn't matter to you . but u have to rmb , nw I don't get any allowance frm dad , how many I gonna survive with so little cash . I knw u r concern with my acne problem , but den pls be more reasonable ..

dk why at time I just think abt the things regarding .. especially when I'm bored .. totally wtf , coz ya lor . what to expect ! annoyed annoyed .. if only I cn rewind the time , I wan to strt everything afresh . I wan to have a different ending . an ending I want .

surprisingly .

didn't expect he would do such thing .. found out by accident , it's so shocking and funny at the same time . I thought only those ppl tht r older will go for it , but den .. below 30 ehh , quite young for this ahh .. oops ! part of me can't accept the fact he did it , but after some thought its his pl .. well , I wish him luck I guess ? and also been missing him much as well , didn't contact for days alrdy ..

felt better after talking to someone abt it . although it didn't solve any problem , bt always felt better after talking to someone . if only I'm still have time with my BFF , could have juz told them everything . they are so busy with sch etc .. hope bin cn pull through , and stay happy . life always have up n down right ? I'm sure you will feel better in no time . loveya .

paranoid

i hope i'm thinking too much.. i just can't stop thinking if people is hating me or angry at me, i'm not sure i'm too sensitive or what. the fact is i really don't have high self-esteem, so i'm always thinking people judge me by my looks etc. people really do, just that we wouldn't know.

not trying to be emo to be attention seeker, but the fact is does anyone know how i really feel ? i treasure every single relationship (not the bgr) , i take it to heart what ever had bee said. not xiao qi, but den i care too much i guess.  i'm a person that i need u to tell me u love me everyday, because i'm insecure .. i don't think i'm important to anyone..

always laughing doesn't mean i'm happy . it's really just a mask i need to wear, because nobody knows how it really feel like to be me , huien. if someone asked are you ok ? it's always fine, why? because i'm not sure how to answer if there's anything wrong. i'm sorry being me.

feeling didn't fade

not sure what I wan .. the feeling just doesn't fade like I expected it shld be .. but then it's impossible for him to like me , I'm juz a xmm like what he say . I'm neither pretty or smart .. nothing make me special , other than my pimple face . haiz , why oh why ? :( got such a bad skin .. don't feel like updating much , shall update soon . bye ~