simple life looks great .

haven't been on blogger for quite a few months alrdy , guess i'm too lazy and busy to do so . it's week 4 since since reopen . all the modules i'm taking nw are way too hard as compare to last year , i shld really strt to study . well , i can say life in sch nw isn't tht relax after the holidays . planning and preparing for events and camps , assignments n project due dates are getting near , quizzes as well . at least i am having a fulfilling sch days ? so many things happen too during these few weeks . realize that thr r many times u can't trust ppl arnd u , u don't knw wht is their motive of getting near you . can't judge someone by its cover . quantity of friends , quality of friends . which one u prefer ? most ppl tend to go for quantity , they hope to be popular , but u do have a price to pay . the higher u climb , the higher u fall , you'll be hurt all over and tht is the price u have to pay . being ordinary is fine , at least u r happy .

i need a break

i'm tired of everything , it's time to have a break .

sometime simple is beautiful as well

been a month plus since i last posted . that was way before my main exam i guess ? i'm done with my year 1 and i'm having my holidays now . tomorrow would be the result day , well i hope my GPA would be arnd 3 , i don't expect to do so well this sem . kinda guilty of playing too much this semester . have to work extra harder on next semester to get a better result . didn't expect myself to get into main com , bt still kinda happy though . and i'm going kukup trip with the incoming and outgoing main com , i'm sure it would be a fun trip , it's on the 16th-17th mar .

life have been good ?

it's been long since i posted , hardly have the time and mood to do so . have a busy schedule for this 2 weeks , since the due date for project and assignment are arnd the corner. nxt will be the main exam . shld really strt studying , stop procrastinating !!

it's 2012

so times really fly, it's 2012 . sch have officially strted, results are back. i didn't do well, was expected thr'll be a drop in my result, bt i didn't except to be a huge drop . shld really buck up and pull my grades up . it's important for my GPA .

jealousy ? maybe ...

since age i posted , 12 days ago . meet up with my girls for a zoo trip tdy ! have awesome tym getting crazy with them . teng and me were acting like kiddy , crzy girls ! feeling guilty for nt getting the girl x'mas present tdy :/ shall get it soon , bt i'm so busy with works and house-chores , didn't even have much tym with my hw . shall really get strted , another few days sch gonna strt alrdy .

cherish every moment

finally sch's out nw , test are over . holidays strt . the test wasn't very hard , except tht Qmethod was quite tricky . do hope i can ace it . kinda regret joining so many activities , cause i don't have tym for my dears ! having camp , outing and packing day . wow ! and i have econ , Qmethod and system & concept tool project due whn sch strt . not forgetting the individual computer programming major project . oh well , busy schedule i have .

what's the matter ?

what am i doing ? i don't have the courage like i do in the past . what should i do ?

is there a way out ?

it's week 4 of sch. i have been procrisinating ... it a bad sign . how am i going to improve my study ? to be honest , sch sux . lecturer and tutor have change , somehow the enviroment changed . therefore , feeling kinda drain frm studying .

life in class isn't making any easy for me . the girls still do their gossipping , outcasting etc etc ... however , at least me n sherrayln is still friend , we still cn be each other listening ear . have been attending lecture with zhi ling too (: a friend i made during ESC camp ^^ she's a nice friend.
although life wasn't tht imperfect , however i still hope that i can change class . haven't been meeting idk-ers too , kinda miss them so much . hope to meet up soon (:

family have been quite peaceful these few weeks (: it's a great sign . love my family , especially my parents ! i really cherish them , although they may be nagging n unreasionable at times . hehe , daddy n mommy i love you ! (:

hope to find you soon .

keep on hoping

it's not easy to let go , be it hate or love.

holiday is ending , another 10 days. thinking of going bck sch make me feel so drain . the thinking of facing them make me feel so annoyed , upset , drain , etc etc ... anyway , i juz hate going sch , cause i have to face them .it's gonna be another two and a half year . muz endure !

anyway , i spent my holiday quite well i guess ? had been working as a promoter and admin . so earn quite a few bucks tht cn last me for a few months , and it's a long holiday agn . have to work agn . not forgetting to mention tht i went for esc camp . it was awesome ! made quite a few friends during the camp (: and i change my hairstyle . guess kinda cute ? lots of ppl say tht :x hmm ... couldn't say tht my life during holidays was perfertly awesome , cause thr're hip-cup here and thr . however , i do enjoy my holidays .

tdy , my parents sending my maid bck to the agency cause her working attitidue wasn't very gd , and need to wait for a month or smt for another new one . oh god , the housechore :x :x i don't wan to do la D: hope she'll find another better working enviroment , and hope we cn get a better maid ?

i can't let it go , be it hate or love .

panic ...

two more day will be first paper ! so fast ... :X moodswing ....

give me a hug , tht's all i need

a weeks before exam ... shld strt studying real soon . i guess tmr will be a better day .

give me a hug to let me knw u r beside me, lend me a shoulder to cry , give me a kiss to tell me u love me .

so tired of everything , i need a break .

what's wrong ?

another two weeks before holiday strt . shld really strt revising . kinda shock whn I gt bck my INPROSYS quiz , was thinking tht I'll fail badly bt manage to score pretty well . oh well , happy go lucky I guess ? sch wasn't bad as well , at least I survive through . didn't meeting up bin n Yao this week , they're busy :/ last project , and it'll be finish for this sem .


if only I'm able to find you , I wouldn't be here crying .

too complicated , too sad to know who's ur true friends .

didn't update for quite a few weeks alrdy . anyway , life in sch wasn't that bad since i joined another clique . although thr're tym being left out , but still it's getting better . had 4 quizzes this week , which's alrdy over . another 3 weeks before holiday strt . as usual , ytd meet up with bin , yao didn't manage to come . had awesome tym catching up with bin (: going out with my lovely nvr fail to brighten my day (:


sometime i just hope tht everything can come to a stop . too complicated , too sad to knw who's your real friends .

hoping .

if there's a will , there's a way right ? hmm , I do hope so . sch didn't went too well or too bad . but still the enthusiasm for sch is gone for sure . why ? because I don't wish to see them .

whn I fall , I hope u cn be thr for me .

an ending is a new begining

ytd was NV 10th anniversary . all i cn say it was awesome (: realize tht every concert help us to bond with each other . get even closer to each other (: i miss NVAB alrdy ! however i don't lyk the feeling after concert , feel kinda empty . making me wan more , hoping tht tym cn stop thr for a moment. but we all knw , thr's always an ending for everything . be it is happy or sad . everything will end one day. bt the memories will nvr end (: si liang dad sent me home , so i reach home before 12 ^^ thx ! (:


i don't know what change you , bt feel so hurt abt ur change . be it as a lover or friend . the one i use to knw , whr are you ?

breaking apart .

idk wht to do ... within seconds , I'm falling apart ... whose gonna pick me up agn ? how I wish it never happen before . I pray , praying for miracle . I'm so hurt to move , so hurt to laugh , so hurt to cry . wht shld I do ?

thr's a time u need to get away frm everything.

sometym be alone doesn't mean lonely i guess ? although the relationship between me and the class is more distance than before . bt at least i cn be me (: sometym i love the silent . maybe i may look lonely , bt sometym it really doesn't matter . meeted teng on sat . had awesome shopping tym , buffet and sing k (: and ytd meet up with bin and yao (:

seeing them really make my day (: they give me the courage to stay strong (: being with them , let me recharge agn , and go face the girls in my class . really in love with them :D although we can't spent so much tgt anymore . bt true friends don't distance themselve even they don't meet up often (:

this coming sat will be NVSS 10th anniversary (: hope the concert will go well .

be it in the past or present , u're always thr for me (:

have u ever thought who give me the courage whn i need it ?

do you knw thr're so many times i wanted to just give up and fall apart . do u knw wht give me the courage to continue to stay strong ? have u ever thought of how i feel ? do you knw wht i have been through ? the answer is all no . whn i have problems in sch , who cn i turn to ? my friends , not you .

you're tired , am i not ? i mean who's not ? you say i didn't help out at home . oh really ? these two weeks i have been rushing home after sch juz to come bck and help . you didn't say a thanks , now you're saying that i'm not helping ? i just went to back every friday night to help out only . i'm not going out to play . i'm just try to help out , i just hoping that everyone arnd me cn be happy . is this selfish ?

do you have any idea how passion i have for music ? no ... two years back , whn i having a concert at victoria concert hall . asked you if you wan to go , you say not free . but end up you're at home watching television . do you knw how disappointed i am ? i wish you guys were thr to support me . however , you didn't . and i don't have wonderful friends in poly . my poly life sux , i'm just trying to get myself busy and forget my problem . and the only way is music .

yes , it's my fault for not doing well in 'O' lvl , nw i did better alrdyy . but did you see ? it's never enough right ? what i do is never enough . never enough to be your good child , your perfect child . i knw , before i was born , you was hoping i'm a boy , but end up i'm a girl . disappointing right ?

how long can you be strong ?

it's monday ! a new week in July . another month to main exam . hope I cn do well . (: wish me gd luck (: even since so many things happen , actually make me realize , many tym alot of things is beyond our control . maybe tht how god arrange it , hoping we cn gain experience . frm pain , we'll learn . experience make us a better person I guess . but thr're so many times tht I suddenly feel the faith is fading in me . I'm worried tht someday I'll just break down . huien jy okayy ?

I'm always waiting here . just tht u didn't realize .
ps. look back at tym to see me .

passion for music

realise that I still have passion for music . I miss playing flute . playing it make me forget my trouble because I'm focusing , and concentrating how to play well . (: haha , so I wonder shld I join back band in tp ma ... but thr's many factors why I don't wan join . haha . in love with music (;

u keep calling ppl sticky , but errm hello , I don't stick to u . I tired to avoid u as much as I cn . don't u see it -.-' and what's wrong eating medicine to get better skin ? are u jealous ? ur skin condition isn't tht gd pls ... and yeah wht u tweet on twitter I wund borther tweeting back indirectly . since I have done u wrong in the first place , I'm juz gonna close one eye to make up wht I done . however I do hope u have some 良心 , I didn't do that over . but lyk I say God is watching wht we doing , and yes there's karma . and if u are too over , u also will get it . haiz , I miss the days I have in sec 3 & 4 life . life was much more peaceful than this year . hmm :/ but I do believe 只要笑一笑，没什么事过不了！coz I still have a bunch of friends that's always thr whn I need them (: thx (:

wow, I nt sure how long cn I ignore their comments and be strong at the same tym . I'm losing the grip alrdy ... the faith in me is fading . I don't knw how to be strong anymore ... they thought I'm tht strong ... it's all acting ... but who's knw right ? part of me is alrdy falling apart , I feel lyk bursting out into tears ... bt who cn I turn to ? no one ... I keep telling myself , just don't care , carry on with ur life , but I just can't . so pathetic huh ? I need a rest frm everything ... why just can't they move on ? they say don't try to act so strong den end up be a sore loser . bt hello , if I don't , wht am I suppose to do ? being weak ? letting u laugh at it ? and u keep saying loser ? don't u knw wht u write is so not logical ?

posting say ppl lame losers . I think u r juz referring to urself afterall . who's the one tht always post emo tweet . u lor ! LOL ! loser don't knw how a loser act lyk . I'll tell u here , they are jealous of ppl so they always bitch ! their mouth is juz meant for bitching , so yeah bitch ! and u said u r luckily coz nvr go airport , I'm happy to say I'm more luckily than u coz u didn't come . I went thr for a purpose , bt u guys ? NO ! so LAME losers pls get out of my life ! tyvm ! (: juz retain or smt since u don't wan be same class as me . I don't mind having a smaller class (: one for all , all for one . all retain la (:


oya , if u ever get to read this post , don't assume it's u okayy ? (: hahaha , I didn't type ur name thr , so don't BHB think I talking abt u arh (: unless u r guilty of it ! ((: hahahaha ! fcking bitch get lost kayy ? (: I'll be so happy without ur bitch mouth bitching (:

only have two words to describe them - no life ! and 8 letters as well - childish ! shouldn't care abt what they say . lyk seriously !! LOL . this is the first tym I will use LOL , coz really they no life lor :) oh well ... wht to do , nt their parents , can't lecture them . hahaha , bt I don't give a damn anymore . I'll be the one growing up , have a better stand in society (: they r at the disadvantage ! hahaha ((: believe urself man ! get over with this ! another 3 yrs to go ! JY ! (:

I hate this feeling ! feeling so anxious , worry >.< n I'm making things worse . huien u r a idiot ! totally ! 100%! I really didn't mean to make them walk so far ... argh ! :x I'm really sorry . but seem like nobody wan forgive me , none of them reply . if u wan me to choose dignity or friendship , I would choose friendship . so I took the first step to say sorry ... but haiz ....

been a month since sch strt.

my poly life have offically strt a month ago . it's the 4th week of sch alrdy , but it look so umm , unreal ? can't believe i'm in poly . haven't been really studying , feeling kinda of guilty . gonna study tmr ! having quiz n lab test nxt week ! thr's nth much to say abt my poly life , it's juz fun , busy n play . miss my secondary sch frens! especially my clique( Yao Yao , Yun Bin , Selina and Wai Teng) haven't see them for quite some time already . can't find another time to meet them . project project project ~

i'll be moving house two days later . do hope i can adapt new enviroment . thr's nth much i can really update on my blog coz thr's nth cool going on .

the second week of sch juz end , tdy is a day to let me rest ~ having a bad cough nw currently , my dad wants me to see doctor , but idk shld i go or nt , coz i hate medicine ... however , if i don't go , idk how long this cough is going to be with me :x so hmmm , maybe i shld juz go right ? den few days ltr , i cn have my mac ~ so long nvr eat le :c hehe , love to eat <3

if a guy tell me tht he will love me forever , i wouldn't believe it . i don't believe love cn last forever . wht's forever ? i hope i knw the answer .