didn't had a celebration for x'mas with my friends or family . my Christmas was just plainly boring , and partly i was in melaka for somebody wedding . do hope i cn spent my tym with my girls ! my parents is getting more lovely as usual , happy for them . hate it whn they argue , bt they hardly do alrdy . hehe , gd thing ! (Y) well , time really passes real fast without us knowing , 2011 is coming to the end . do hope 2012 cn be a better year for me , giving these crap a stop . although i didn't mention much abt the incident anymore , i still feel so crappy abt wht happen . somehow i'm getting mentally tired , real tired . bt i couldn't share with anyone cause i couldn't . i may look or sound cheerful at time , i do still need someone to tell me it's okay , i'm gonna be here for u . let not be strong anymore , for once . cry ur heart out .

seeing my friends getting fun in poly , make me pity myself . how could i be such a failure , being in such state in poly . is it about jealously ? i have no idea ... i'm glad tht they are happy , bt at the same tym i feel crappy abt myself . my life is surrounded by them , and for them they are surrounded by others and me .