wow, I nt sure how long cn I ignore their comments and be strong at the same tym . I'm losing the grip alrdy ... the faith in me is fading . I don't knw how to be strong anymore ... they thought I'm tht strong ... it's all acting ... but who's knw right ? part of me is alrdy falling apart , I feel lyk bursting out into tears ... bt who cn I turn to ? no one ... I keep telling myself , just don't care , carry on with ur life , but I just can't . so pathetic huh ? I need a rest frm everything ... why just can't they move on ? they say don't try to act so strong den end up be a sore loser . bt hello , if I don't , wht am I suppose to do ? being weak ? letting u laugh at it ? and u keep saying loser ? don't u knw wht u write is so not logical ?

posting say ppl lame losers . I think u r juz referring to urself afterall . who's the one tht always post emo tweet . u lor ! LOL ! loser don't knw how a loser act lyk . I'll tell u here , they are jealous of ppl so they always bitch ! their mouth is juz meant for bitching , so yeah bitch ! and u said u r luckily coz nvr go airport , I'm happy to say I'm more luckily than u coz u didn't come . I went thr for a purpose , bt u guys ? NO ! so LAME losers pls get out of my life ! tyvm ! (: juz retain or smt since u don't wan be same class as me . I don't mind having a smaller class (: one for all , all for one . all retain la (:


oya , if u ever get to read this post , don't assume it's u okayy ? (: hahaha , I didn't type ur name thr , so don't BHB think I talking abt u arh (: unless u r guilty of it ! ((: hahahaha ! fcking bitch get lost kayy ? (: I'll be so happy without ur bitch mouth bitching (:

only have two words to describe them - no life ! and 8 letters as well - childish ! shouldn't care abt what they say . lyk seriously !! LOL . this is the first tym I will use LOL , coz really they no life lor :) oh well ... wht to do , nt their parents , can't lecture them . hahaha , bt I don't give a damn anymore . I'll be the one growing up , have a better stand in society (: they r at the disadvantage ! hahaha ((: believe urself man ! get over with this ! another 3 yrs to go ! JY ! (:

I hate this feeling ! feeling so anxious , worry >.< n I'm making things worse . huien u r a idiot ! totally ! 100%! I really didn't mean to make them walk so far ... argh ! :x I'm really sorry . but seem like nobody wan forgive me , none of them reply . if u wan me to choose dignity or friendship , I would choose friendship . so I took the first step to say sorry ... but haiz ....

been a month since sch strt.

my poly life have offically strt a month ago . it's the 4th week of sch alrdy , but it look so umm , unreal ? can't believe i'm in poly . haven't been really studying , feeling kinda of guilty . gonna study tmr ! having quiz n lab test nxt week ! thr's nth much to say abt my poly life , it's juz fun , busy n play . miss my secondary sch frens! especially my clique( Yao Yao , Yun Bin , Selina and Wai Teng) haven't see them for quite some time already . can't find another time to meet them . project project project ~

i'll be moving house two days later . do hope i can adapt new enviroment . thr's nth much i can really update on my blog coz thr's nth cool going on .

the second week of sch juz end , tdy is a day to let me rest ~ having a bad cough nw currently , my dad wants me to see doctor , but idk shld i go or nt , coz i hate medicine ... however , if i don't go , idk how long this cough is going to be with me :x so hmmm , maybe i shld juz go right ? den few days ltr , i cn have my mac ~ so long nvr eat le :c hehe , love to eat <3

if a guy tell me tht he will love me forever , i wouldn't believe it . i don't believe love cn last forever . wht's forever ? i hope i knw the answer .

it's juz the second week of poly ! and we have so many project in our hand alrdy ! so poly actually is not tht free after all ! haha , bt still sch is fun (: especially with karen , joey , kai wen n xian min (: hehehe , so many gossip ! sch is enjoyable coz of them (: i'm worried tht i'm unable to do well in poly , coz thr's so much thing i haven't learn before ! :x but i'll try my best to get good GPA ! (: another few more weeks i'll be moving house ! so fast right ? few months ago , i still saying tht i'll be moving house soon ~ n it this month ! oh gosh ! time pass so fast right ?!

TP orientation is officially finish , monday(25th april) sch will offcially being too . well tym fly , it 23th april tdy ! have so much fun in orientation , in a awesome class that have awesome mentors and classmates :D whn u have fun , u wonder wht tym pass so fun , oh well :/ i wan to be mentors too ! i wan to have fun and hope the freshmen will have fun lyk me :D and i wan engineering sch to win business sch ! i wan to win back regatta ! and i think i lyk a guy frm tp , he's cute ! bt the chances we are going to be tgt is 0.00001 % , so hmm :/ tdy alumni band practice is kinda boring , so many seniors idk :(

it's tmr , why am i feeling so down ? shldn't i be happy ? it's my birthday . so insignificant ...

11 April
went out with Ayuni (: catch the movie 'Hop' at amk , before tht we are shopping arnd (: almost lost a library bk , scare me lyk hell , didn't reali enjoy the movie :/ oh well , bt still the movie is nice (: funny , friendship (: in the afternoon we went nex to contiue our shopping (: I only brought a necklace , hehe ! saved money ! (: came home for dinner . looking forward to 12 April ! syf day ! :D

12 april - syf !
went sch at arnd 6.30 am coz nvsb was the first band ! listen to nvsb , they are reali nt bad (: so they gt silver ! I'm so happy for them ! had so much fun with my juniors ! was playing arnd after they knw the result . everyone was so happy ! all of them was so happy (: although I'm no longer a member of nvsb , bt still my heart will always be with them (: once a nvsb member , forever a nvsb member (: hope the sch wund look down on band agn , we gt a silver back ! nvsb is a silver band ! (: I love band ! didn't join lee's for dinner coz I need to have dinner at home . hahaha , oh well , at least I cn save money :D the feeling still remain , just tht it's nt so strong :/

tdy went new house to clean the rms , coz the furniture is coming in tmr . it's tiring , but oh well , it's my house . so i have to put in the effort to clean it . haha (: shld be moving in in may . sch is strting in a week ! i'm looking forward to it ! to meet new friends (: i miss my friends ! love them so much (: saw jk n herman at hg mall tdy . i'm having headache the whole day , haiz .

i reali reali hate you . i cnt forgive you . i cnt forget wht u did to me . I HATE YOU . seriously ... i hate seeing you with my friend . i'm not sure is tht jealous or hated or scared . i don't wan you to be in my life . i don't wan you to get near to my friends . i'm scared to lose my friends because of you . they are my clique , lyk my best sis ever . always for thr for me , bt i'm scared because of u agn , i lose my friendship . wht u did 7 years ago , i cn nvr forget , nvr ever going to forgive you . i'm nt sure why after i see the video , i get so upset abt it ... idk wht to do to make myself better , i reali don't ... guys don't leave me behind kayy ? i reali need u guys to be by my side . why u guys leave me because of someone talk back abt me ? i'm scared ... i'm really scared ...

i'm strting school on 19th april ! hehehe (: anyway tdy went out with bin , jk , yao , milton n calvin . seem like 3 cpl , however it's nt ! i have nothing to do with calvin , we are juz fren . feel lyk odd one out , my life is lyk plain . no guys no bf , it's all abt myself . wht's ur feeling toward me ? i wonder ...

gosh , my blog is kinda dead . haven't been updating it . hahas , lazy >.> i doubt anyone will visit my blog . coz thr's nth much to read . my new house at yishun is almost done i guess ? juz tht the furnitures are nt done . and i still need to wait a few more weeks to get my lappy :/ IT fair haven't strt yet . anyway i have no idea wht shld i get , so i think i still have tym to think abt . (: hmm , thr's nth much to post i think ...

hmm , guess my blog is kinda dead :/ haven't been able to update . have been working and working (: working wid some uncle , it fun ! (: ppl think it will be boring , bt hell no ! hahaha (: the posting of jae is out , business process & system engineering at tp . kinda happy getting of my first choice although tis course aren't my dream course . anyway be contented of wad we had right ? Thank you God for arranging such great arrangement for me (:



hmm , recently have been thinking abt him so much , don't know why :/ I hope I cn forget abt it , but still ... anyway baby I love you
...

LAST DAY OF 2010 !

woah , it's the last day of 2010 . time reali pass very fast . well , it was fun i guess ? hahax , because of my awesome friends and him . although we aren't together anymore , he gave me the best memories i had for this year . this will be an ending of 2010 but a new begining for 2011 . let work hard to make nxt year wonderful .

thank you my friends for being there for me when i always need you , your concern n support are priceless . thank you for bringing laughter to my life in 2010 :) and of course we do argue , but we're always friends . the tears n laughter we shared cn nvr use money to buy , so let treasure it . ever since i met u guys ( selina , yao yao , yun bin , wai teng , cheryl , hwee jun , yun hui ) i'm really happy . in the past , i don't have any so-called true friends . but now i'm proud to say i do :) you are the angels in my life . stay happy as always :)

i'm gladdd to say tht the picnic on the 29th dec was a great success ! we had so much fun ! we went picnic first . well , we don't know how to fly kite ! so kite flying - FAILED ! but we had so much fun trying to fly the kite . the food yao yao n selina prepared was awesome ! went to pool , had dinner at pizza hut and went bin house for majong . no pics -bin computer can't read selina camera memory card . awesome day !

idk why these few days i keep having headache . missing him ? maybe ? oh well , there is nothing i can do with that . missing him asking me to tc . but nah , i shall not msg him so much , i don't wan him to get into trouble with his parents again . maybe he really going through a hard time cause of his parents , so i shall not be his burden anymore . baby , i love you . i rather you live happily without me being your burden .

working nw ~ tired ... hahax . had lunch wid daddy n his friends at some resturant . did i spell it right ? i don't think so . anyway , it was expensive , but daddy friends treat us :) nice ~ haha , feeling very full now .


nothing is perfect , but we are born to make it perfect (: love is a mircale , because the next moment i fall for you . yes , it's you (:

ytd had lot of fun , but i'm kinda of lazy to post . anyway , ytd was cheryl birthday , she treated us lunch at the marina bay sand hotel , the food was great :D hahax . went pool n try to catch soft toys . i didn't get any , so oh well . baby is back too . didn't sleep for the whole night ytd , don't know why , is either because of the coffee , or myself ? i really don't know . tried very hard to fall asleep , but still ... only manage to get a half an hour of sleep , and i was awake . followed my dad to the office . i'm working at my dad office btw . i'm done wid the stuff around 2 hours ? and i'm slacking nw , cause there is reali nth for me to do . anyway currently i'm not feeling very well . baby is working now , so he isn't msging me , i'm bored to death ...


ytd did have fun , bt kinda feeling down ? seem like the trust isn't there , that hurts a lot my dear friends ... byee

cheryl birthday

hello . here to update again . tmr is cheryl birthday , and she is holding a birthday party :) hahax . anyway most of the idk members will be there , except wai teng . she went oversea . i'm really looking forward to tmr coz baby is back n is cheryl birthday party :D hahax :) bye bye .

it juz the second day baby went oversea , missing him so much . nth to do ...

Bck frm holiday !

hello ! i'm back from Beijing ytd night . this trip is full of history lessons - china history . well , i learn a bit here and there because the tour guide speak too fast , i can't follow . didn't do a lot shopping in Beijing coz it all winter clothes . hahax . anyway i can say overall it's a fun trip but the weather is way too cold . during the first day i went to Beijing , the wind is so strong . to be honest , i think i can fly away if i didn't hold to my sis . hahax , the wind is reali reali strong . hahax . the food there was okayy :D i gain weight ! hahax :D i'm glad i gain weight . hahax :D normally girls don't hope to gain weight , but i do , weird right ? i know , but i'm kinda too skinny . hahax . step up 3 is nice , showing people wid passion for dance , just like i have the passion for music :D hahax . these 7 days i miss baby so much ! i think he too as well . well , today is his turn to go for holiday , i'll be missing him so much .

heart is empty without you . be back soon okay ?
thank you baby for helping me to update :)

Gone for Holiday

Hello =)

Okay, It's me again, helping her to post while she's on Holiday. =)
I find it much more fun helping her update my blog than my own one. Haha. Anyway, I can update you guys about her life recently. Well, she went trekking with Bandmates yesterday,and she complained a lot cause she was wearing flats(not the correct shoe for trekking) and it hurt a lot. It was fun though =) She survived the whole jouney in flats ! This proves that impossible is nothing !! Sounds familiar ? Haha. Anyway, she went back home to take her stuff for the farewell party and than she was at school again. The buffet was awesome man, and I'm sure she enjoyed it =)
And than she had fun playing some games with her Bandmates and off she was to home. Now's she's in Beijing ! Hopes she has fun. Oh, she doesn't know I'm helping her to update so shh.....

Peaceout.

hey , i'm back . thx baby for helping to update . hahax , anyway tonight i'll be heading to the airport because i'll be flying to bei jing and will be back on 8 dec . and baby will be oversea on 9 to 14 dec :C 2 weeks couldn't contact each other . gonna miss baby . this year i didn't went for the class chalet , due some reasons ... kinda regret for not going . however , ytd went back for band camp . went tracking wid band members , it was a tiring trip , but it was fun overall :D the farewell party food was much better than grad. high . well , the farewell party game didn't go well . band change a lot , due to teachers , conductor , majors , students . i hope the attitude of the members in band can change for the better , i hope the see the band to become alive again :) nothing is impossible . my youngest aunt came singapore ytd , we had a talk before she went home .

yes , like wad baby say try to look on the bright side . i do , i do give in most of the time , however i'm still feeling kinda sad . thx baby for cheering me up :D loveya <3

Hello. =)

Shall help *her* to post =)

Actually, I'm not very sure what she did after the Grad High. I only knew some stuff she did, like go out with me, with band friends and her own BFFs. Oh yes, and she found a job =), which pays quite a lot I must say. Awesome =D

Okay, better not post to much, haha, after she love me too much =D

See Yah.
*Hui En*

o.o sooo long nvr post ler ! today was grad. high ! hahax , bin wai yao n me had spent so much tym preparing for today , n it passed so fast ! okayy consider ytd , it already pass 12 . had a great tym during the grad. high . although is tiring , we reali had fun . i'm gonna miss 4e2'10 ! great tym n journey wid everyone ! hope to have more such event , however i hate heels ! my legs hurt ! went pool today :) i mean ytd :) funnn ! :) hope to go soon again ! :) well ,


i still love you , i hope u wund give up on this relationship , i reali hope . coz i don't want to give up .

i'm tired of looking bck of ur view . because you alway say sorry , it become worthless . so what the point of saying sorry ?

baby , i love you . yet you seem nt to be waiting . bt i noe life have to carry on even without you . huien , stay strong ok ? :) miss you so much too , bt don't dare tell u .

Quite long nvr post le horrx ? I think , but anyway my iPhone is fixed ! Nw using iphone to post again . Kinda lazy to on com plus don't wan use during prelim . Well , I don't I will do very well for the prelim , especially amath paper 2. Totally sianx ... Baud , nth to post le , byee