haix , today is PTM , i hvn go skul yet , mine is in the afternoon . scared scared sia !! bt i think zi yao xiao yi xiao , mei sen me guo bu liao . bt still i cnt get into deep sleep ytd nite , too anxious . muz try hard nxt tym !! if i dun keep my own promise , i will get everything f9 nxt year ! so i muz reali reali study hard ! no more fooling around ! jy everyone !! well , ytd band start 3.3o , so long nvr so late le . he xun do drill , keep turning round , for goodness sick i juz went to the toilet to vomit coz too full >< bt after tht they were having bonding section , blow wind blow . nt bad lar , bt i wasn't tht well or high to play . after tht , went take instrument lorrx , have combine , nt bad la our playing , i'm so lonely ~ the seniors of my section nvr come , only miie ... sadded . hahax . anyway make ann. jiu fall out , went home . sms-ed alot ppl on the way home . reach home cnt go shower directly , coz i cnt go in my rm n take my stuff , bro having tuition . ytd nite nvr reali done anything , coz very tired , think coz during skul tym too hyper .


wow , he reali thought tht i'm tht flirt of course i still love him den wan to noe who he lyk now rite ? is he acting stupid is it ? i alway after breaking den cn see clearly how important him is to me ?? y ? i reali dunno why ....i was trying my very best to act cheerful in front of them , wanted to show tht i cn live better widout them , bt it juz a cover ... it hurting . nt showing tht it hurt , does nt mean tht it not hurtful . it reali does ... i thought i was well protected in tis relationship , i thought he wund be able to hurt me lyk ian do , bt it still do , altohugh it may nt as hurt as him , bt still . i wanted to hear his voice , bt when i do , it seem lyk it thousand mile apart frm miie . huien u have to pick up urself ! bt i dunno how ...