went to skul at the usual time...around 6 plus...chioing homework...den floor msq me asking me i in skul le ah...den after meeting her saw wai n bin...den we talk lor...till time up...gt uniform check...when bck class have eng...n other lesson...i hate chinese lar...so many homework sia...i hate it!!!lolz...den have pe...run 1km den take class photo...hahax...alwin is so darn gross...><>< so darn sianz....cannt play audi n watch tv also...den do wat??homework or slp??hai...n my mood totally sux.... the memories keep refreshed almost everyday...



i noe i may look stupid for wat i have done...ily tht y...everyday i went to the place where we alway meet n talk...i wan to keep the memories,although it may hurt bt is sweet...

have a short day in skul so nth to say much bt i am so darn slpy today...all the lesson i feel lyk slping especially chinese lesson...after skul went around the skul to find teacher den go canteen wif hwee jun...lend her $1.50 to eat...den i go off le...my own lar...den i walk pass 119 bus stop n ian 'gd frends' saw me den keep calling 'enen' n alot stuff bt i dun care lar...bt my heart lyk...hai...dunno how say lar...somehow i gt pissed off by them n my mood went emo so i came home n i juz slp until 4 plus...bt i gt chocolate to eat so my feeling is a little bit much better le...ahh!!nxt time could u pls ask ur frend dun kj me...very irr. leh><



there is something in my mind tht i cannt put it down...this thing make me worry...nt abt him bt is someone...

today was so darn tired!!!gt band till 7 like tht...wan my life...n i having gastric cuz i nv eat...lolx... n today my mood haven recover bck to it normal..n need a long time b4 it can bck to the high**
hai...tmr need to pass out the chinese n i haven finish yet...die die le...i did tis year de chinese o level paper...my mcq sux bt my compre sill quite okary...lucky~ i having a heartache n headache...my darling~ need slp more.....ahhh!!!




sometime u may be the one who noe me first bt u also the one who dun undertsand me the most...mayb to u guys may be a excuse bt i dun wan say more...let tis misunderstanding continue...

My heart will go on
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're one

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold you
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

nice song!~

second post for today...i noe i am nt a great frend...i noe that,cuz my temper is nt good(can be out of control bt better le...)...i can shout or yell at someone most of the time when u reali pissed me off or when i am i n the bad mood...i went very pc very easily lar....ah!!!can be guo fen or siao...errm n sry tao pig for shouting at u juz nw...i didn't realise i was shouting...my mood was so darn fcking sux n heart ache lar...i went very pc wheni cannt find the dic. thx to my shit bro...ask them go eat sai...lyk to take my things n anyhow put n i can't find it...i will bao cho nxt time><...some ppl cannt take jk tht y we end up become enermy...is my heart aching or angry??who can tell me the answer...n floor dun tell anyone y i heartache...i dun wan everybody noe>< tmr morning meeting floor they all for breakfast n play...my mood still darn bloody sux...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!dun wat to do lar...

bloody hell...i saw him today...fck fck fck....i heartache lyk siao...lyk nv ache b4...wat the hell...ahhh....nth to do...later gt band so very late den can go home...sian!!!!!!!!

nth to post...going to finish my hw!!!cuz today last day of holiday...ahh....my mood still sux!!! wat the hell!!!sianx..........

Tag by ayuni

-how long have you waited for someone you love?
~errm...nt very sure...

-What you want to do right now?
~finish my project n hw

-If there is miracle,what will you long for?
~him bck to my life n idk member can b together^^

-Do you hate your friend somethimes?
~errm...think no if is gd frend n bestie...

-Where do you wish to die?
~i nt sure...i nt going to die nw...

-Do you believein seeing rainbow after a rain?
~dunno...sometime i saw sometime dun...

-What is impossible things to do?
~errm...being together wif him again??

-Is there something which you wished never happened?
~yupz...nv break up?

-Are you happy with your life now?
~still ok ba bt still missing sonething

-What if your crush ask you out?
~dunnox...give him a slap?n no crush nw

-What will you do when you feel bored?
~read novel,listen to music,talk on phone or slp

-What feelings you hatethe most?
~being betray,kena ps n being hurt

-If you"ll be separated from your love one(s) for a period of time,what will be somethings you'd tell them?
~i love you and i miss you.

-What you look forward for this coming week?
~meeting idk member!!n nth much le

Instructions:
Tag 11 people,list them at the end of the post.
notify them in their tagboard that they have been chosen
Cheryl twin
Selina
Yun bin
Wai teng
Yun hui
Yao yao
Hwee jun
Sakinah
Debbie
Sock hoon
Oki

as uue see iie juz change miie blog skin...well,iie am feeling better...can't use c0m t0 play audi these few days...sianx...miie dad brought another laptop for miie sis...gd rite??lolx...iie am totally nt in the mood of doing anything...n i gt a personal bloq...if idk member wan to noe abt the web come find me...den tellu cuz idk member allow to go only...n is abt him lar so nth to see actually...my mood nw totally sux lyk hell...in a lovesick mood??maybe...

doing nth...whole day slacking chatting on phone n doing hw...so guai...no lar...nt at all... today was in a bloody mood...super angry n pissed off...i tell u dun u think u elder den me can give attitude to me...n talk to my frend also attitude sia...wat the hell...u think scary ma??did i say anything scary n funny meh??lolx...from imh one ahh...fck off kk...u think is funny den laugh more kk??...dun wan ... mean dun wan ... lolx lar...young kids will say that...mean u haven grow up...hell!!!dun make me puke can anot??i am so darn pissed off by my bro too!!n my stupid bro pls dun act ke lian in front of ppl like i bully u...lolx...dun make me angry till i slap u again...u cry u win?? nooo...N.O =no...understand...ps cuz alot of vularg...n pls dun misunderstood tis post...i am nt scold anybody who tag me or wat lar...is someone tht is a coward...i noe i shld nt have scold here bt i am so pissed....

nt going to post much cuz nth to post n nt in the mood...today had band...in the morning had drills den have lunch break...went wif joanne n sakinah den sectional all the way...feeling very sick dunno y...feeling like vomitting...lolx...


tag reply:
hwee jun:i dunno how to answer u bt i hope so...thx..u r great frend




i miss him...i am jealous...i saw him again today...i dunno wat to do...i hope he understand><

today is last week of holi de monday...oh man...i haven finish hw!!need to k shu le...sianx!lolx...floor say she going kill me...omg...better run b4 she saw me nxt monday or wear mask den she wund notice me...haha...today gt game tryout bt nobody tell me so i nv go...no one msg me to tell me...lolx!!!tmr gt band n also bonding section...think going bck malaysia tis sunday think will buy some chewing gums...if u wan pls tag n tell me...later going k shu... 黑糖瑪奇朵 very nice~wang zi so handsome!!!hahax...was emo ytd bt after talking to floor n tau pok i feeling much better bt went emo in the morning...lolx-.-''' so lame rite??hai...

n HAPPY ONE YEAR TO FLOOR N JASON!!^^
THEY ALWAY HAVE SWEET MERMORIES...
HAHAX...




nw i den realise tht i didnt try to forget him bt i try to rmb the things we do n wat he like...i dun wan to forget bt i wan to keep inside my heart...my positive thinking no longer works...even i in taiwan i still think of him...i miss him n love him,i can't let it go...does it worth it??i dunno how to answer tis question...being alone wifout u is a tortrure...my tears r rolling dow again i hope it can stop on it own,bt it seem like it wund stop...

i am juz bck from taiwan...last nite den reach singapore...hehex....quite fun^^haha....7th junewhen i reach taiwan was evening time le...when to a temple to look around n have our dinner...bt we nv eat lar...when to shop similar to 7-ll...buy cup noodle to eat...den i dunno where i went le lar...first few days we went to mountain n yuan zhu ming de place to see lor...only on the third to fourth day the shopping time increase^^ hahax...wanted to buy tis n tht bt i end up nv buy...walau!!!wat the fck....nv shop enough lor...ahhh...hahax...bt i still mange to buy stuff for idk ppl n two kor...hehex...bt juz purse n hanger for hp only...bt think my parents will go taiwan again thx to my grandfather de frend...they say they will visit him if they gt time... shuang~ i can do more shopping le...bt i dunno went...ppl live in taiwan very frendly^^ n they like to joke around...n their shop de name also very funny de...lolx...the tour guide quite nice... i dun relai rmb where we go bt i juz noe is very nice lor...will post pics u guys to see...

tis hosre look real ma??

a staircase

a toilet door....



a resturant....gt a lot of paint n full of yi shu de thing made by the owner....

updating some pics^^ hope u enjoy...will update more...

this is hwee jun...hahax...nice pics rite??

monster face^^

i SS bin when i at her house...hahax


name tags


val. day present for frend n senior!!


hui tiian de val. present...who take off pooh clothing??

me n cheryl ywin de hand...



guys cleaning up hall store

my cousin n bro

my cousin...cute rite??

second post for today...juz change my blogskin...hahax i reali like tis blogskin although is plain a little...

ytd dun have chance to update blog...cuz ytd early in the morning i gt doctor app. den have an x-ray...to check my back-bone...hahax...gt reason lar...hahax...after tht i went home slack for awhile...den went out wiff my family for lunch den went bank n doing some shopping for the oversea trip lar...after tht went to fetch my grandparents tht come from malaysia...think everyone should noe i am ONCE a malaysian...^^ after tht went to my dad office n help him do some paper work...after tht went AKM hub to shop again n have dinner near my ex-primary skul...reach home around 10pm plus...have miie shower den went to slp around 12plus...hahax
i am flying off to taiwan tmr^^ shuang~ hahax...so i cannt update blog le bt pls help me keep it alive...n also i will miss my audi,animation,books,bed n my soft toy^^ hehex...
OMG....I AM SO SO DARN DARN PISS OFF!!!!ahhh...u make me look lyk a fool in front of uue!!! fck...dun ask y...wund tell!!!bt is cuz of guys....

ytd cannt update blog so i today update^^...ytd gt band meeting from 8plus to 9 plus...talking abt the bonding section for band~the last week of holi...time pass so fast...hai...after band meeting went to wai house play audi...n have lunch at her house...like two plus came home n have a slp till evening cuz nt enough slp den very tired...after tht floor call den dhat awhile i have to help my mom to sweep n mop the floor...have my shower den watch tv n chat wi floor again... after tht play my mom phone de game n slack around till midnite den slp^^n sry gt error on the last post...is june nt may..type wrong bt change le...today wake up at 9.30 den 10plus go hougang mall go top up my ez-link n return library bk den wait for mz,ivy,kristie n yuni...meet yuni n went to 4th floor to the shop den mz call den we went to fairprice meet them...den walk around the fairprice to look at the stuff needed for the bonding section n mz record down...ask siyi if she going oversea ma she say no den i told her i going oversea bt nt malaysia is taiwan...n she little gone crazy abt lin yu jia...think she going hate me cuz i go taiwan...hahax...psps....later think going bin house to do homework...n hai...audi n chatting is part of my life le...too much cannt lar...hahax
err...wund fight wif her le cuz waste time n energy lar...i give in le...i can't tolerate her anymore... maybe she will say i nth to say so i give in lar...i dun care wat she think lar...i believe myself can le...cuz i can nv lie to myself...is so tiring to hate someone...reali~ at the start i knew it bt hai... i will stop hating her...be it a frend or a classmate...i dun wan fight le...juz a classmate is gd enough...maybe treat her like normal others classmate like tht...great enough...n i can dun like her bt wund hate...we gt a chance to meet is our bless...like wat i told floor lar...is all fate...i wund cuz of her my mood change...


tag replies~
yunhui=>thx...ya lor...bt tau pok is in singapore!!!gt error^^ sry hahax...is june lar hahax
floor=>thx for tagging to tell them is june is typo...
yuyin=>will relink u de^^
yao yao=>thx for tagging^^
triiciia=>will link u up de...haha
=) ~err wat u mean??lolz...my yeah is for i can go finally go taiwan nt dun go band...gt link meh?? peiying=>see first...if gt i will buy for u de...hahax


i can't forget abt him n the mermories r coming bck...n i become scared again...i wonder how i going live wifout him...ahh!!i try to forget u bt i can't...i hate myself

sianx~nth to do...wai n bin go out nv ask me...emo le lar...jkjk...today 1 month for ******** ** wif him...hahax...think only floor noe ba^^ he 4get wat date is it...hai tis mean one thing le...n i going taiwan!!!on 7th to 14th june...8 days n 7 nite^^ yeah!! haha...going to miss band pra. for one week...tau pok going camp on 6th june n me flying on 7th june...cheryl the crab going to malaysia on 8th...floor flying off to hong kong on the 9th june...so cannt go out together tht week...ytd me n floor talk on phone again n again we talk abt tht...omg...lucky i flying off on 7th june...floor dun need to educate me anymore...it so dirty~ reali need go wash brain le...hahax...hope on the 6th june floor can go out den we go watch kong fu panda...very funny n interesting...hahax...whole day nth to do...sianx~ only can use com...lucky i nt going to be in sin for a week=) miss darling twin...long time nv meet her cuz cannt go out...XP n mommy n tau pig n floor...tau po n xzb n yun hui...i wan go out play wif them!!!lolz...end post here


i reali miss u...alt the love start to fade bt there still love...u juz left me in the forest for 1 month...i am so lost...today is so special to u ba...
i reali miss u very much

second post for today...is like juz a blink of eye...it almost pass one month after me n him break...althought gt feeling toward him still it reali start to fade little by little...gd thing ba..cuz i dun reali feel so hurt...bt still whenever i go the places we also spent time together i still will rmb him lar...will still think of him...soon he will be out of my life...let it be a history in my own book...juz a page is enough ba...all is fren de^^ bt he my kor nw...audition rawkz!!hehe...n ytd nite i have a sweet dream bt i noe it wund come true...only floor noe=) n also today morning we chat again n we talk abt the thing again...dirty our mind...floor ltr we go brainwash to wash out the thing can??hahax...end post here...

i thought tht gal wund come my blog...hai...too bad i nv put as private...cuz so ma fan to put as private...need hotmail or watsoever...will nt fight wif her...waste time...n she felt happiness cuz is the first time she win me in mid year...bt i believe if reali use ur heart study anything is possible^^of cousre ppl need study lar..if nt can get 91 for mid year??lolz...hwee jun is so gd^^ is debbie "tuition teacher" too...hahaz...if i nt wrong jacky oso wan...well...i have nth to say u have work very hard...bt wat she did she noe herself lar...comics blah lahn also i get wat i aim for i dun mind losing to her...cuz the skul nt only have her...believe in urself nth is impossible tht wat senior say^^

ok...so late in the nite i still am using com...sianx bt tired too...tmr sat,nth to do so think going stay at home to rot??in the afternoon was playing audition wif cheryl bt after she offline awhile later i play wif floor...bin n wai nt in sin so cannt play together...bt they coming back soon...in the evening went to watch tv den shower...around 8 plus went out wif my family for dinner...came back home chat wif floor...we talk something which is very dirty...n i swear i wund wan to do that...after that watch tv again...slack...nw using com=) hahax...nxt week no band bt gt meeting...cuz fri meeting change to nxt tues...after posting i going watch animation...hwee jun having camp so she nt at home...sian~only floor can pei me talk...

juz back from skul nt long ago...bt nt reali...after band went find bin to have our chatting section... emo sia...moodswing...hai...eat alot of chocolate n potato chips...cuz emo ma so i eat alot...play bin phone den break the records of jian kai n bin one...hahax...shuang~ haha....me 6.40 wake up den meet alanna...i spent 20 minutes waiting for her...den went mac den talk n eat...meet siyi den go skul den talk again...fall in den do footdrills-the whole morning...tired~ den when for lunch break...den inside ava to listen to my ng class den go classroom sectional...fool around wif the sec 1 den also gt serious time lar...den mr ng test them out...still ok^^ den packed up...wait to put instrument inside the band hall store...fall in den stay back for awhile to say abt tmr meeting...den juz nw chatting wif floor n nw using com...wai n bin n two others guys going melaka so cannt talk to them so sian~will miss u guys de tmr 8 must reach skul for band meeting...till 9...sian~ cuz i very tired dun feel like going anywhere...i wan stay in my bed....bt after meeting i nth to do...so can stay in my bed^^ n also hai...piss n emo too...blah blah blah...mid year does nt mean the end of the world...i will study hard to win her~n go same class wif bin they all^^ espeically hwee jun n cheryl^^even i lose to jinyi nw bt i believed i study harder i can win her ba^^ bt glad to say i nv fail any subject...nt even a single one...so study hard to push my result out..n also i self study one...no tuition teacher^^yea!!well...nw holisay will find someone to teach me of course...to get better result ma=)

tag reply::
wai~errm...feeling much better le...so still ok lar
huitian~thx for the tag...
weizheng~thx for linking me up^^
floor~thx for tagging^^
yunhui~i go ur blog bt cannt tag leh...cuz no tag box...dunno is my com gt problem...hahax...bt thx for tagging...

i reali miss the days we spent...i will nv forget...bt soon i think i can get over u^^i believe in myself...

juz change my blogskin...long time nv change le...nw holiday gt lotz of time so change lor...going to change again soon...today dun need go skul so i stay at home for the whole day...other den eat i juz slp cuz very tired...like pig...tmr gt band^^ hahax...no skul le so feel like going band...haha...
well i reali very pissed n emo le lar...cuz mon de thing...hai...my blog r so dead lor....pls tag=)

omg...today reali happen alot thing n is big matter!!!one is chinese o n english oral n trouble too... hai...frend gt problem cannt help i will went mad...sorry tht i cannt help u lar...u r wet...heart ache...hai...wund post much abt this thing le...mxt year de today is my chinese o...so scared sia... will end post here

skul holiday le...parents meeting in the morning...went ok lar...my parents did nt scold me bt ask me work harder for eoy if i wan go e1 or e2...after parents meeting went to dad office for a while den had lunch den came home...too tired to do anything so went slp for 3 hours plus...after tht chat on phone wif floor n crab....after tht went mop the floor den chat wif joong...ytd i went to the places i spent most of the time wif him n the place we last meet b4 we ... cuz i angry wif cheryl...n i cry n cut myself(main reason nt cuz of cheryl)...cuz i dunno where to go n also i miss him...that y i went back there...i miss the time we spent there chatting n alot thing lar...i miss him...i dunno y...last time went i saw th i like very happy n wan to talk to him n pai seh,bt nw feeling no longer there...bt for ian is different...he like thousand miles away from me even he juz in front of me...i miss him...i wan to talk to him bt he far away...i miss everything abt him...i think of him all the time...whenever i gt time or see ppl dating...i very xie mu they all...is tis call love??floor n jason they love each other very deep...carry on...hahax...a few more weeks 1 year ann. rite?? happy 1 year ann. ^^n also ppl dun keep asking if i break up wif him le ma...i will tell u nw...yes
can?dun keep asking y we break up...or who wan break up...is him can??of course gt reason den break up rite?i get very irr. by the questions...gt a lot of project work need to do in the holidays... i must study harder nw for eoy!!

be it nw or after the love for u will nv change until i am in love wif another guy which wund happen in my secondary life again...is pain enough for one time n the love wund grow lesser cuz i am serious in tis relationship>33

nw having IT...sianx...nth to do...playing game nw....hai...everyone gt thing after skul...ps me...nth to do lor...i dun wan go home...ahh!!!!floor hp n mp3 taken away from her from her mom...cannt play audi too...so chan...later she have to go ghome straight after skul...end post

1.If you have a choice, which language do you want to learn?
ans:err...jap or korea ba....

2.what do you want the most now?
ans:ian back to my side...

3.who is the person you trust the most?
ans:my bestie^^

4.do you think you have enough confident?
ans:dunno...think no ba

5.five characteristics that you can't torlerate.
ans:proud,give attidute,acbc,ps ppl n like to show off

6.do you think there will be a moon eclispe in singapore?
ans:dunno...i nv study tht b4

7.what is your goal for next year?
ans:pass my exam wif flying colours.

8.what song are you listening?
ans:no song

9.what the feeling you like the most?
ans:happy and wif someone i love the most

10.what is your favourtie quote?
ans:i dunno...i dun rmb any...

11.what do you hate the most?
ans:backstabber

12.do you cherish every single friendship?
ans:yes...of course

13.what do you want the most now?
ans:him n a-cash bt i very poor one

14.what do you think is the most important in your life?
ans:frends,family

15.who do you hope to be always there for you?
ans:family n frends n ***

16.what is your favourtie flavour ice cream?
ans:pepper mint n chocolate

17.who cares you the most?
ans:dunno...think is family ba...

18.other than yourself,who you trust the most?
ans:a kor of mine nw?

19.who make you smile when you are down?
ans:hwee jun!!

20.if god allow you to have a one n only wish,n it going to be fulfilled,what will it be?
ans:let me be wif him 4ever

left 2 days b4 holidays...sian...gt eng oral on 26th may which is sec 4 chinese o n also gt parents meeting on 24...die le....b4 skul meet floor n others for breakfast...again me n floor come first...we play cosin while waiting...den later meet le went playground play den chat den go skul...today dun reali have classes lar...hai...someone ps go wif her frend lor...she gd...i help her so much bt she like tis...hai i also dun care...later go math o. b4 tht when buy potato chips den after that went floor house den play...after came home den shower,eat den slack...nw using com...going slp soon...tmr gt band...jk take thing easylar...dun do silly things kk??i am on the same boat as u...no better...wounds need time to heal...jia you...there a lot of time for u...i miss ***...haven change tis blog stuff...if gt time i will change the skin too...by the way...who is boyboy??i will try update more bt i very lazy de...hahax...end post

nw having IT....sian~ angry wif cheryl...dun wan talk abt it..cuz maybe to u guys is kind of lame... so i dun wan talk abt...very surprise tht i reali get angry wif her lar....later gt the sci thing lar...dun feel like going cuz very sian...dun wan go... phone bill is back n is $**...very ex...get scolding from my dad...ytd nite emo went slp around 8 plus ba...long time nv slp so early...






i missing him more than ever...whenever gt band i start thinking more abt him....he affecting me very much...i dun expect tht...i started loving him so much until i can't stop...my wound r bleeding more den ever...he left me alone in the forest for 14 days...i'm alone nw...i beg u can come back....i love u...be it after or b4...

ytd morning went rp wif floor,hwee jun n edwin for breaketfast...den went playground...sian~
hai...den later after skul went floor house play wif her hamster...uki?? more cute den hui tian de...haha...after that play audition...den after that went home wif hwee jun...talk on phone wif floor,hwee jun,cheryl,bin n myself...from 8 till 11...sian...nw having music lesson...later still gt band...till 7 ba...very late...long time gt band pra le...n jian kai is so lame!!!!super lame lor... like to talk crap....n his bird fly away le.... n i hate *** so much...dunno is hate or still ****...sian~ angry wif him dun msg him for 2 days le ba....n 5 more days plus plus to someone especial day... must last long Kk??hahax...wondering if i can surive wifout senior covering me...i dun play well





he went out of my life for 13days...

nw outside wif floor,bin,wai,yao,yun hui,hwee jun jun...n some guys to celebrate yun hui,bin n hwee jun birthday...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN BIN=MISS POTATO....
haha...sian...nth to do...today marking day...tmr think getting back result so i dead soon...after today i dead le...i miss ***...jia you for ur 'o' kk???haha...kor jia you...later going to eat^^ sian

nw having IT...so sian n tired...feeling very emo cuz of ian...hai...emo emo emo...bt dun wu hui...we nv chao jia...hai...nxt having his n sci on wed...math on tue...den forget le...everyone jia you kk??nth to post much...later going out for lunch n have history CRT...ytd stay at home for the whole day...nth to do...going to change tis blog to personal blog...cuz twin dun reali blog...only me...